Im fasting today

Im so thirst...I miss my COFFEE :/

COLD water~~~

ICE CREAM~~~

My Dinner for today :

My mum cook some thing special today ;(

Yea ..I cant even look at it , 

Mum cooks always good even it was yesterdays one..

but today INTAKE:

a glass of Sugar Cane Juice

coffee with milk

yea that all

today all in control

(*.*)

Im not hungry today after dinner

I manage to stay away from the dining table,I quickly sit in front of the TV...But I still can smell it from there,even now that food still calling me....But Im not that hungry enough to eat..im in number 2 hunger.

I can do it..

I have an event to attend

and I really want to look the best on that day!!

I cant mess it up like I did before

I dont even looks good in picture

but they dont understand it

they keep taking it   :[

but I

 BELLA MAKE A PROMISE TO MY SELF THIS YEAR EVENT WILL NOT BE THE SAME  

AGAIN

On my Liquid Diet

Yup...So SORRY for the delay I got some depression often after step on the scale.
So...like you read it..I just started my liquid diet , it had been 4 days including today..and I realy like it,you got to try this...before this I just got my self 1 week binge...then on the next Monday I realse  some thing got to change HERE ...so I get my self a cup of coffee....then It just started :)  Just COFFEE and SOUP.

Liquid diet result:

before (result for 1 week binge ) : 60kg
after 4 day : 57kg

Hahahhahahahahhh i love it soo much!! I hope to stay strong with this!

Warning...take it safe dont push your self to hard :) 

Full of disappointment.

Hello Monday!
       Today felt very calm, I do not feel hungry even though the sound of my stomach surprise me out of bed in the morning. I start the morning with a cup of tea and a glass of plain water.
      I want to share my latest discovery in Youtube, about One doctor that manage to change ED people in just 4 days! .. I have spent my whole morning and noon on Youtube. I watch it until the last episode, I feel very disgusted with my self . I know I'm self harm myself, but I want to fell perfect.As I said in my last post Im so desperate to the empty again and again.That make me  feel very good.
     Accordingly, my diet plan today is a slice of bread or a slice of watermelon .Maybe,Its not my time yet to change my diet to the good one I guess.Yea .........im sure that Im still fat for that.

Still at 58 kg

    Soo..it has been a while and im still on the same step.But i did feel my jeans a bit lose..how that can be..i think that was just my imagination.i really wish to be just like them ...and my life will be perfect.So..for today i hate my self coz..that damn instant noodles keep asking me to cook them...and guess what i did. Soo..there go my good eating diet..i just lost by instant noodles..
   But then I manage to control my self then i only ate half of it...after that i get 3 cups of diet tea.Yea that could work i guess..somehow i really hopeing to lose more more more more more and more.