Binge Day :( I wish I did not eat today

Yea..I cant control anymore..everyone keep asking me to eat.

EVERYONE

few minutes later

they all staring at me like I there are a zombie in beside them

yea..you asking me then I do it

and

I cant stop..

I rush to the bathroom about every plate I ate

You know what...it have been about 8 days  I dont puke my self

Hell yea..it easy now..

I feel dizzy..I cant sleep tonight coz when I lie down on my bed I can feel theres some thing in my stomach...

some thing that should not be there,

I worry about tomorrow,what will happen ?

Did I gain ?

1kg? 2kg? or 3kg?

owh..I wanna cry right now..

tomorrow please dont ask me to eat anymore 

I HATE IT !

I want this really bad right now!!!